I am an open book, and this is a post of pure honesty that comes straight from my heart. I am not writing for kudos or for anyone to try and change my mind. I am writing in effort to give glory to God and to ask for your prayers.
It has been a while since I created a post, and to be honest it has been an attempt on my part to ignore God, which you probably know you cannot do. I knew God was working on my heart and I was terrified of what He would say to me if I gave Him the chance. We serve a mighty God and He will get our attention if we want it or not.
When we were moving to Montana, God confirmed we were to move here based on the scripture Matthew 19:28, “Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit” (Read more here). Little did I know what this was going to look like.
'Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.' Matthew 28:19Click To Tweet
In the past four months I have been asked to speak at two different events (one in April and the other in June), and the opportunity to go to the Middle East (sooner than later). They all scare me, but in different ways, as you can imagine. At the moment of each offer I was elated over the speaking engagements. I was so honored that anyone would want me to speak for them. It is a fulfillment of one of God’s promises from 20 years ago. When it came to the trip to the middle east all I could ask is, “Why?”
I was truly sick to my stomach with nerves. I have never gone on a mission trip. I like the comforts of home and the unknown scares me. But, at the same time I felt tremendous peace that this is what I am suppose to do, and excitement. I have questioned God so much I have felt like Jacob as he wrestled the angel.
'Yes, he wrestled with the angel and won. He wept and pleaded for a blessing from him. There at Bethel he met God face to face, and God spoke to him.' -Hosea 12:4Click To Tweet
Yes, it is a tremendous honor to be asked to speak somewhere, and it is also a tremendous honor to get to go and see what God is doing miraculously in the lives of so many in the Middle East.
Developing A Prayer Life
God is working on me like never before and I covet your prayers. In this journey of seeking His will He has also revealed to me how lacking my prayer life is and that I cannot go without being saturated in prayer. So to help me work on this discipline I plan to write more on prayer, continuing and elaborating, on what I started last year. I hope you will join me on this journey.
One More Thing…
Our team that is traveling to the Middle East is in need of at least one more female. So if you feel God is stirring in your heart to go please contact me.
If you would click here and read more of my story and if you feel led to go to the Middle East and what we will be doing. If you feel led, I appreciate any donation you can make to help this trip possible.